It’s been so long since I have written a blog. I simply don’t know where to begin. I can say that 2013 has been slower for me than I imagined it would be. I came into this year with grand plans to be executed immediately concerning Transforming Life Institute, but life has brought me and my plans to a slow crawl. Each day more is being revealed to me about myself as I learn to “Dance with the Universe” at God’s pace and not my own. Slowing down allows us to take a closer look at the “inner work” we are doing and forces us to acknowledge “the work” still required that many of us are trying to avoid.
This time has allowed me to become more consciously aware of things about myself that are less than flattering. But isn’t that what transformation is all about, identifying the “internal barriers” that prevent us from living our lives to the fullest? One of my favorite quotes comes from Rumi who states [I’m paraphrasing], “Our goal is not to seek love, but to seek out and find all the barriers we have created within ourselves that block love.” Many of us never seek out our internal barriers, but as we endeavor to live our best lives, those “internal barriers” find us.
At the beginning of the year, I found myself thrust into new relationships and situations and the familiar seemed to be instantly snatched away. The intensity of the changes in my life were a bit overwhelming and my response was out of character to say the very least. Yes, we desire change, transformation, connection, and love, but we certainly want it to come at our own pace. When we feel things are moving too fast, sometimes we subconsciously do and say things to disrupt the pace which slows things down to a grind or a halt. If we are not careful our fears will causes us to lose the very thing we desire most, all because it seems to be happening in a way which leaves us feeling as if we have lost our “sense of control.” Oh, how we dread feeling as if we have no control. Herein resides the underline problem, relinquishing our need to “dictate” change.
The most beautiful transformation of them all takes place when the caterpillar that is wrapped tightly in a cocoon “just lets go.” As the caterpillar gradually releases its grip, the beautiful wings of the butterfly emerge. I wonder what would happen if the caterpillar refused to “just let go”? I don’t know. I do know, that not one butterfly takes to the air while still clinging to a tree limb for dear life. So, why do we attempt to experience life and love while still holding on tightly to all of our fears? We have no chance of enjoying life until we learn how to “just let go.” Let go of everything which stops us from encountering great love, great success, and great satisfaction. So, what am I doing during this “slow season”? I am learning how to relinquish my need to control [dictate] the pace of change [transformation]. I am letting go of my fears. And I am enjoying life, love, and success.